the four right chords can make me cry

sick.

I'm sick, and whiny, and i cant sleep, and no one is awake to shower me with love and attention. And i doubt they would even if they were awake. I feel hot, and cold, all at once. I can feel my limbs radiating an immense amount of heat, but my skin feels cold. I'm wearing a jacket in a non-aircon room but i still feel cold. and hot. My nose keeps running and I can hardly breathe. Every breath is labourious. I need to breathe, desperately, but each time my do it rasps against my dry throat. Surrounded by a mountain of used tissue. Kept tossing and turning and finally couldnt take it at 4am. it's now 6, and i can't get back to sleep. My head feels like it's in a vice, and somewhere someone is very slowly twisting the clamp.

Fever was at 39.1 degrees, though my forehead didnt feel very hot. Read and replied some emails from friends I havent heard from in a while and I felt better. Met jamie online and he prayed for me. As it stands, fever is now better at 38.7 degrees, feel less sick and tormented.

Thank you, God.

posted by beckyboo @ 5:59 AM